It has been a helluva journey for me. I never imagined the abuse. I never imagined that I would go through that. I never imagined a person could be so cruel, so merciless. I never imagined that someone would want me ruined.
It was the chapter of my life that led to the purification of my soul…much needed reorientation and spiritual redirection.
He was an ustaz from Al Azhar. I witnessed the lies, the hypocrisy, the abandonment of the message of the Quran. I witnessed how they use and abuse the religion. I witnessed the ignorance and the propagation of chronic ignorance. I witnessed it all with my own eyes. I observed their games. I studied their moves. I analysed their combat ‘strengths’, also their weaknesses, their fears, their lust for easy money and power over others.
The day after my divorce was final I threw away the tudung. Three days after my divorce was final, I became Quranist. The journey of rediscovery had already commenced… the day I had decided to walk away. I went into hiding, but kept in contact with Quranists worldwide. In hiding, I studied the Quran. It took four years for me to come out of hiding….November 2018…I came out of my cave.
Now Im back on the road of humanity and universal values. I’m rebuilding. I do not know how long it will take, but I am in no rush. Now I savour every beautiful moment…I enjoy the little things in life….I share with the beautiful souls in my life.
Thank you God for the lesson. Keep me sane in this world of insanity; Keep me compassionate, in this world of monstrous cruelty; Teach me to love….this time a man of honour, successful, confident, ….most of all a man of great humanity.